I’ve been anxious lately, about many things. Some of which will be off my plate shortly and some more long term issues. Nothing to be concerned about really, just you know what we can do when we start to worry about something!
I notice that my anxiety takes on the form of dreams. I have restless sleep, anxiety dreams, and nightmares. In the past week or so I’ve had the following dreams:
One dream in which everything with the international conference I am planning that could go wrong, does go wrong. I was informed by a coworker that if this particular dream was occurring while I was fully clothed, then I was not anxious enough. I beg to differ. This one served the purpose of motivating me to get a bunch of work done, so I am rather grateful for it.
Then for 2 nights in a row I dreamed that there was an intruder in my house. I would wake up in a panic just sure that I could hear footsteps. Every two hours I woke up with this dream, for 2 nights in a row. I’ve begun sleeping with my phone by the bed and fully clothed. And yes, these require a full lights on search the house because so panicked am I after I wake up.
Last night we moved into the nightmares. Anyone who knows me, knows I have a terrible fear of snakes. Seeing a snake can just about throw me into an anxiety attack, and even in my childhood, many of my reoccurring nightmares were about snakes. Still are. Snakes and zombies.
In last nights dream I am in the backseat of the car with my brother. We are on the highway going fast and someone else is driving. All of a sudden my brother is holding 2 snakes. He is not being malicious, he is just holding them but my panic is such that I just HAVE to get out of the moving car right then and there. But I can’t because of the child locks. So I keep trying, and pounding on the windows and screaming. Luckily at that point Miss Bug woke me up. I couldn’t be more grateful for my daughter to wake me up at that moment!
Let’s hope these taper off a bit next week.